When preggers have u ever had a day where u just want to....?

before i got pregnant , i used to drink every weekend to wind down from the week . i haven't touched a drink since i found out but imagine the torchure i went through in my first 5 months ! i missed my 21st birthday , all my best friends' birthday , & all the summer parties . now at 7 months , i don't mind not being able to get 'fuuuucked up' every weekend , i look at the way my husband & friends act when we go out [i play babsitter lol] & i juss think 'holy crap , i act like that when im drunk?' . so even if i do end up drinking again , it's not going to be like before , i'm going to learn to appreciate alcohol for how it makes me feel & not overdo it like i used to . but of course i feel like i wanna get drunk sometimes , i juss know it's not worth losing my unborn son over